Trust and be Trusted in Return

I did something today i havent done in months...i read a devotional. I wasnt looking for it, i wasnt looking for God or the voice in my ears i cant get out now, I simply stumbled across it looking for a Christmas CD i wanted to hear fro some random reason last night. I also found my journal...but thats for later.  This is not about that. So I put the book next to my bed so i would be sure to see in in the morning.  Getting up earlier than usual, i stumble thru my morning routine thinking "If i have time i will read it." Lo and behold...time was made for it. So I sat down, commited myself to spending a mere 5 minutes open to God and what He wanted me to see today.  To say it mildly...my mind was blown.

A simple topic.

Trust.
Yet so hard for most in this instant gratification world we live in.
Trust takes time. Trust is freely given yet earned all at the same time.  Trust is learned.

Thats not what my devotional was about persay, but its what i got out of it. My devotional was about trusting yourself, your instincts, your calling.  My devotional was about trusting God, the place hes put you in (or youve found yourself in as my case so often is).  It was about living life with uncommon joy thats only found thru trusting God, whats Hes done for you, what Hes doing with you, and what hes going to do with you in the future.  Its was about not letting people tear you down simply because you dont see things the same way as they do, or live your life the way they want you to (something Ive been dealing with a lot lately).  It was about being the person you are CALLED to be rather than the person you are told to be.

No, its not easy.
No, its not going to be all sunshine, daisies, and rainbows once you decide to commit yourself to it.

Its going to be hard
You're going to have to fight even when you dont have the strength to go on becasue you're not fighting with your own strength anymore.
There are going to be days you want to give up...and days you will.

So everything I've read,heard, meditated on, or done today has been about trust.  About trsuting myself.  Trusting God.  Having faith in His plans for me.  Trusting those He's put around me. Trust and be trusted in return.

But underlying all the "trusting yourself and God" frosting is perseverence.  Something i know a little about.  Knowing that even though you dont think you will make it thru one more day...God is there, whether in your amazing friends who have become your family, your community, your dog, or a simple devotional...God is there.  You're not alone.  Trust that you're not alone...becasue you never are.

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone